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Notes on an Adrenaline-Filled Night
I keep my head up, watching the ceiling as I pass the mailboxes, keeping a solid distance. More than an arms length is fine for most things. My building is mostly grad students and service workers, but hopefully this early in the year means they won’t be out this late into the night. I breathe, in and out. My hope is futile. There seem to be a few people waiting by the elevator. They know each other, and one is visibly drunk, which means the others are likely drunk as well. S
J. Joseph
Aug 288 min read
An Overwhelming Feeling and Concerning Conversation
I breathe in deeply. Hold. and breathe out, taking longer on the exhale than the inhale. Eyes unfocused staring at my dormroom’s wall. In. Hold. Out. The feelings of the horny, stressed, and angry college freshmen start subsiding. Being washed away in the exhale, like a sandcastle in the tide. This is the best I can do. Well, this and taking my insomnia meds. By unfocusing my eyes and emptying my head, I can let the feelings from all the shows wash over and past me, effective
J. Joseph
Jul 248 min read
Echoing Concerns before a Work Event
Sitting in front of the large mirror in my coworkers’ apartment, I lean close trying to keep my makeup as precise as I can. Fortunately, sitting still doesn’t cause too much trouble. The barrel that is my body I emptied in the hall, as I trailed behind Quinn. Well, mostly emptied. After the collapse, I’ve been trying to teach myself a bit better endurance. Not sure it’d help at the bottom of an elevator shaft, but it might delay things. And for the most part that just means a
J. Joseph
Jun 268 min read
Last Minute Preparations for a Party
I wake up, my head thrumming. I wish it were from a hangover. Unfortunately, it’s just our boss. I was working late, managing some catering screw up for this evening’s events. Fortunately, while I might have terrible hours and no future prospects, the pay is pretty good whenever Ms. Pryor is organizing her networking events. I always make sure to write down Networking Events in calendars, because ‘Blackmail Party’ sounds a bit too evil for my liking. As I rouse myself, I look
J. Joseph
May 228 min read
Controlling the Outflow
“Why is it so cold,” I complain in the elevator as I head out of my apartment, “It’s June.” My neighbor, who also heads out to work at...
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May 30, 20258 min read
The Martyrly Art of Awakening from Dirt Naps
I can feel the bullet ripping through my chest. Dang it. Got to stay conscious. At least until I’m safe from discovery. Clearly, I’m not...
J. Joseph
Dec 6, 20248 min read
A Mistaken Meeting on the Way Back Home
I look at the strange vial. It almost seems to twitch. I would say that isn’t really my area of expertise, but that isn’t strictly the...
J. Joseph
Nov 1, 20248 min read
A Complicated Discussion over Drinks with Coworkers
Phil and Mary take me out for drinks. An initiation ritual, according to Mary, for my first day in the office. It’s like they forget that...
J. Joseph
Oct 4, 20248 min read
The Day Our Remote Colleague Brought Her Problems to the Office
Back in the city. Back surrounded by the constant cacophony of things and their feelings. Fortunately, fixing things is literally my job...
J. Joseph
Sep 6, 20248 min read
Intentionally Utilizing the Powerlessness
My life’s gotten a little more interesting, I must admit. Fortunately, with those minor changes, I’ve gotten better. More in control. Not...
J. Joseph
Aug 2, 20249 min read
Learning to Bring Harmony to the Dissonance
I took next week off to figure out control. I’d gotten somewhat used to the constant hum of everything electric and the strange...
J. Joseph
Jul 5, 20248 min read
A Stronger, Vaster Feeling of the World Around Me
The school year is finally over. On the one hand, that means much less stress in my life, for at least a couple months. My phone vibrates...
J. Joseph
Jun 7, 20248 min read
Purple Team on the Hunt
The shadow seems to stalk along the rooftops. No, not stalk, drift. Words are important, and that movement isn’t like that of a person or...
J. Joseph
Nov 24, 20238 min read
Hunger: A Halloween Story
A middle aged man named Alexander Mitchell, standing just inside the door out of his office building, checks his coat and scarves one...
J. Joseph
Oct 27, 20238 min read
Living a Life Unnoticed
I wake up alone, in a house that is not my own. As always. It’s a big house, of course, so I doubt anyone will mind. Walking down the...
J. Joseph
Sep 22, 20238 min read
The Feel of the Space Around Me
Sleeping has only gotten harder in these last couple months. I’m not one hundred percent sure why, but I think I came down with...
J. Joseph
Aug 25, 20238 min read
Stress Makes Anything a Whole-Ass Time
I wake up just after my alarm. A fairly regular state of affairs. It stirs me while I’m still asleep, raises my heartrate a little, and...
J. Joseph
Jul 28, 20238 min read
Our/My Casual, Quiet Morning
I think I’ve finally gotten the hang of this whole weird ability of mine. Like, take for instance today’s morning routine. It wasn’t...
J. Joseph
Jun 23, 20238 min read
Flying out from My Fingertips
“Phil, man, are you sure you want to do this?” Mike, my best friend from all the way back in middle school, asked me. We’ve been standing...
J. Joseph
May 26, 20238 min read
Embodying and Beginning My Newest Life
Leaving my old friend’s home, I can’t help but shake my head a little. The meeting, the chat, it didn’t help much. Other than being...
J. Joseph
Apr 28, 20238 min read
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