Kid's First Musing

So, I'm actually doing this shit. Fuck.

I was sitting back and thinking about what I wanted to do and realized that sharing my shit was probably a good place to start. Who am I kidding? I wanted yet another way to put off doing my work, and another excuse to write more.

If you want to know my life story, quite frankly, well, you can go and read my introductory post to tell how I feel about that whole situation. It's actually worded well. Anyways, the point of this thing was twofold. First, this is how musings are going to look, generally: Poorly formatted, barely edited, and stream-of-consciousness-y. And if you don't want to read my rambling thoughts, ignore all my 'musing' posts.

I know, I probably shouldn't tell people to ignore posts, if I want traffic or other things websites need to survive, but that's the truth. All my musings are going to be incoherent. The titles will say what they are about, but it'll be circumspect in getting to that shit.

Speaking of which, this is my first musing. Why the fuck am I writing this blog? Well, for starters, as I mentioned, I don't want to do my work right now, but there are a lot of ways to waste time. No, the real reason is in my 'About' section: I wanted to share what I've been writing. I like writing, and so I wanted to see if anyone else liked what I'd written as well. But that isn't the whole reason. You see, I sometimes go through depressive states, and last time, I realized there was jack shit that I'd put out into the world. If suddenly I died, there would be no evidence of my life. And I didn't like that realization. So I decided to change that fact. Sure, I'm not putting my name on this, not really, anyways, but it is out there now, and it is mine. And so, people could theoretically see things I put out there after I was gone.

Yeah, I know, dark. But true. And so, now, after all those weird-ass reasons coincided, I have a fucking writing blog. What I'm going to do with it, I have no clue. But it is here now.

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